GAY rallly called meet in the middle

WOW I had the chance to attend this yesterday.... let me just say could not get over how thousands of people attend this thing...... it was really moving... and I know at some point things will change its just a matter of when.. anyways here is a video of what happen.... hope u all enjoy this and don't let the ruling of prop 8 get u down..... are time will come...

Remember when

I heard this song when driving listening to deliah and it made me cry a little bit my new fav song

Puppy Named Buddy

hey everyone just wanted to say so happy that I got a new puppy hes everything I wanted and more..... he loves me so much super sweet..... he loves to lick me to death..... all post a pic of him on here..... I must say its nice coming home after a long day at work to have someone miss me that much.... its cute...... ^_^ im getting licked as we speek buddy stop licking my toes hahahahahah it tickles hahahahahh

with in the last 2 weeks

ok so the last 2 weeks a lot of changes have happen..... so first off I lost more weight the expected and my clothes are getting big on me so looks like all have to get new ones YAY.... ummmmmmmmm on a bigger note.... 2 guys came into the pic within 2 day of one another.....this one guy lives in hayward.... he said he recall me from san jose state we had a class together..... well it turn out that hes liked me and was shocked when we saw my myspace and saw that it was single.... so I approve his add and we start talking..... I took my chances and went to see him....hes sweet like me and it turns out hes a nurse too.... go figure.... he takes me to starbucks and then we had dinner at cheese cake factory in good old San Fran..... I drive home that night and he call me as im driving home end up talking to him for a good 2 hours.... wow.....

guy #2 lives on the other side of town I saw him at ballys a few times and thought he was gay..... my personal trainer starr thought that too..... so I was off from work one night and was looking at peeps on myspace..... well I saw him on there and said HI...... so messages were send back and forth on myspace again..... then we stop talking for a bit till I sent him a message.... so I end up meeting him at the new starbucks... we talk for a good 2-3 hours which include borders and target and a work out together at ballys...... a few days later we go to teazer this tea place which is so good.... and had drinks at this really chil bar in the gay part.....then the next night he comes by my hose to walk my new puppy with me... then he had to go cuz it was late.... so the other day I go to a LGBT volley ball game with him.... I bring buddy with me and were talking he ends up coming over and we rent bride wars which was a good movie.... he has a bud lite lime and has dinner with me.... Im watching the movie and he starts to tickel my feet.... and I go please u cant make me laugh.... then it all started my face got red till I could not hold it anymore and bust out laughing..... he was like see u cant fool me.... I know.... dam.... WTF im easy to read huh?
so im hanging out with him again tonight he gets to meet my GFs...... the only thing is
he dated this one guy for 3 months and he got dumped and the guy just used him for sex... that was his only bf... so im not so sure about this..... im tired of things not working out..... I am not so sure what to do about both guys....

The guy I want

Sometimes I wonder if people listen to what I have to say, or even if what I say will stay.



I want that one guy who will listen to me, So this love can be.



I want that one guy who will always hold me when I cry, Or at least that one guy who will always try.



I want that one guy who will make me feel like the most beautiful
person they ever met, Or that one guy who wont treat me like their pet.




I want that one guy that looks me in the eyes, In a way different than all the other guys.



I want that one guy who calls me in the middle of the night just to say "Hi", Or that one guy that never wants to say "Bye".



I want that one guy who will make me fell like I never have before, Or
that one guy that wont care what other people have to say anymore.



I want that one guy who makes me open my eyes to see what life can
really be, But most of all all I want that one guy that wants me
because I'm me.

this is a poem I made in march of 09 just wanted to add it on here......




All the things we did together
I will remember them forever
I had so much fun with you
I will always remember you too
How you put smiles on my face
In my heart you will always have a place
I realized I've fallen hard
I think about you whenever I'm bored
Even when I'm not i still do
l now for sure my heart wanted you
But now its time to let go
that i finally know
the pain is just too hard
"let it stop" i beg the lord
seeing you day by day
i have to tell myself I'll be OK
but i know I'm not
inside me it hurts a lot
tears wont stop falling from my eyes
i just wish one day you can hear my cries
my eyes turn red
with me just crying on my bed
you can even see
the pain that runs inside me
maybe goodbye will be good
I'll let let go and forget you if i could