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I got home from work at 805 this morning jump right into bed... because I was super tired.... I get a phone call around 3pm from my sister saying that my mother is in the hospital.... oh let me back up here.... so a few years ago my mother just take off... don't tell anyone where she is and has not desire to see the family.. if u know me well i don't really like to talk about this.... so anyways... I get this call my sister tells me where she at....... it got me all upset..... was not sure if u wanted to go or not... on the way there was thinking so much...... about how my own mother was going to act..... i stood out her door for a good 10 mins just thinking....... trying to prep my self what was about to come.... walk in and take a deep breath...... she was sleeping and wake up........ when i saw her brown eyes lock with mine i just cryed so did she...... i could not form words or move......she had changed.... i missed her.... after all this time....... she gave me a hug and was so glad to see me..... and this made me cry even more because after all this time she never once called to see how I was doing or whats new with my life..... i spent about a good 1.5 hour with her told her whats new in my life and all my accomplishments...... my mother comment on how different one looks....she thinks im too skinny lol.........anyways i know things are gonna go back the way they are......i know the next time i see her will be when she is gone...... i really hate this... but what can i do... ever since my own fater died when I was 2 she went into her own little world where she wants to be all alone......its so sad....