collection of poems from april - aug

FLOWER

You tried to crush me like a flower..
With all your strength, and all your power.
Holding me tightly in your grasp,
So cruelly, so hatefully, until at last...

Therese no more beauty left to see..
The delicate petals that used to be me.
You've finally destroyed with your cruel mite,
Now all that's left is an ugly sight.



NIGHTMARES


Night is falling, the streetlamps shining through my window
I feel the tingle of the shadows on my neck
my heart begins to race

I feel the coming on of the nightly terror
the utterly incapacitating fear of solitude
I'm alone
but still
the worst is yet to come

The slithering creatures emerge from my mind
mere delusions that only I see
but they are terrifyingly real

Grasping my heart in an iron vice
they kill me again
and again
until my deaths number in hundreds
and still I cannot escape

The horrible feeling of no control
no hope
no life
and even worse
it is all my fault


LOVE OF MY HEART

The love in my heart
is the love i know best
Its what keeps me awake at night
and happy through the day
Its what makes me want to protect you
even though I'm not that strong
Its what makes me feel invincible
even though I'm clearly not
But most of all its what keeps me alive
knowing i have a purpose
To give you all the love in my heart

WAITING FOR YOU


It's pretty amazing to me,
Just how amazingly pretty you are.
I feel like I already know so much about you.
Your beauty, kindness, but most important,
Your loving heart...

I'll admit I feel alone at times,
But I do my best to carry on.
Because that's the only way I'll ever find you.
Like so many others before me,
I just have to carry on...

I feel like you're almost here,
And, yet, almost is still so far away.
But I can't control time,
I can only live day by day...

I've been waiting so long now,
For what I've been born to do.
And that's to show you what it's like,
To have someone so deeply in love with you...

I've done my time and taken mental notes,
As other couples have passed me by.
And I'll let you in on a little secret,
I'm going to surpass them all,
And I'll tell you why...

It's not that they didn't know,
How to love someone, or what do do.
It all comes down to me being blessed,
To be the one who gets to love you...

And as I wait for tomorrow,
I'll do what it takes,
To continue to be strong.
You will know my love some day.
But until that day comes,
I'll just have to carry on.